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The Past, Present, Future



Past few months, feelings have been bottled up and the only avenue I can release such feeling is through this blog. There were lots of happenings. Both good and bad. However, good finally triumphs over bad. The past few months were really magical. Something really unexplainable. Something I thought I would never feel again. I felt like a caged bird finally being released. Being able to fly once again. Now, I do believe in miracles.

Work has been piling up, so is stress. I am given more responsibilities now. I am also the PA to one of the most fear Mdm. The stress is overwhelming. Having the fear of doing things wrongly, risking getting scolded at. However, as time went by, she seems to treat me better. She became a nicer person. That’s how I felt. However, this does not mean that workload is lightened. The tons on my back is making me ache. I have to overtime till dawn. So far I have overtime till 2+ am in the morning. And the latest time I ever end work was 530am. Confused? So am I. Just know that the limit is coming and going beyond it may cause much damage both mentally and physically. Tough work? Definitely. However, I found new hope and motivation to bring me on through life. And this hope is just 16 floors down.

I met this girl 5-6 months ago and the swimming pool and I was mesmerized. I couldn’t stop thinking about her. Suddenly she just became part of me. One of my memory. I told myself that I would talk to her a week later if I see her at the pool again – she wasn’t there.

I began to open my eyes. With 2 months I have only bumped into her 4 times. Finally, based on mere luck, I manage to find her online. She was a very friendly and nice person to talk to. Soon I began to feel. A lost feeling suddenly finding its way home. We finally met up and it was only after a month. Just like honey attracting bees, I was drawn to her beauty. Before we know it, we started dating. My girlfriend is Charmaine.

I learnt a lot of lessons in the past that was very valuable. Due to such lessons, I am finally able to be stronger person. It is the past that makes me happy in the present. It is such happiness in the present that makes u anticipated the future with great excitement. The past may not be a fantastic one, but it was all worth it. My friend asked whether I would change anything that happened in the past. My answer was a straight no. That is because without such things that happened in the past, it may risk u feeling this happy in the present. Thus now I tend to look at things on the brighter side. Though life may be a piece of shit right now but who knows what the future holds. You can never be too sure. If you life cannot get any worse, won’t that mean that life would only get better? Live life to the fullest and you would enjoy the fruits of your labour. What lies ahead for me in the future? I don’t know. I am scared but I also have this feeling that it is going to be a great one!

-Finally, the cage bird is set free. Finally this bird will no longer feel lonely anymore-