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Friday, May 06, 2005

April Adventure

The month of April was nothing short of a rollercoaster ride. There were both good times and bad times. These experiences made me stand firm on the mentality that life is unpredictable. Allow me to run through the events of April.

The first two weeks of April was one of the best weeks of my army life. That was because I had SAFSA inter-formation bowling competition. I have never felt so happy about going for training before. Not only that, I bowled 12 strikes in a row! The schedule for the second week was the best.
Monday - Left camp at 1115hrs
Tuesday - Left camp at 1115hrs
Thursday - Competition(need not report at all)
Friday - On off
What a week. However, such enjoyment came with a price and that was a blow to my self-confidence; my ability to bowl well. That was because I bowled super badly for my competition. My team came in fourth because of me. I felt so guilty. I let my team down. Worst of all, I let myself down. When you fall, it is so hard to recover. So hard.

To cheer myself up, I went to buy my PSP(Playstation Portable). A high price to pay to make myself happy you might say, but I guess it is something called crave.The week ended off with a good note. You may think that it ended of well because of my birthday, but it is not the event but rather the company I had. Nothing is more satisfying than to see your special someone, even for a second.

When everything finally seem to go my way for the first time, it feels as if God decided to toy with me and decided to change my happiness to sadness and agony. I officially took over my upperstudies' and it feels like hell. Not only am I doing two people's job, I am also being arrowed more work by my lady boss. It really seem as if she has something against guys. Just throwing temper around. I get scoldings for explaining; I get scoldings for not explaining. Really wonder what she wants. I am almost reaching my limit before I actually suffer from depression. Even my direct boss tell me not to feel so stressed out. She even went around to tell other people that I am suffering from depression. I am just frustrated by the way everyone is treating me and the amount of workload. Please treat us NSFs like humans for once. Reaching break point soon. Who says being a clerk is easy. I would volunteer to study or go combat anytime. My SMU interview was also bothering me, thats because I totally screwed it up. As it was a group interview, you are not up against yourself alone but other "competitors" too. These students from elite schools flaunt about themselves and prove how elopuent they can be. I was also surprised by their "fantastic" answers and shocked with my stupidity.
Question: Why do you want to come to SMU?
Answer: Cause the people here are cooler.
Great work Keith. You publicly showed off your stupidity. A week later, I recieved a letter. I was accepted.

Life is really unpredictable. Sometimes you feel as if you are king. The next moment, you don't feel like living. Anyway I feel that these tribulations are only trials and tests to make us stronger. We humans aren't that weak up in the mind( Though i can't agree whether our hearts are just as strong). Plan your future but take things a step at a time. As qouted from "Forrest Gump" , "Life's like a box of chocolate. You never know what you're gonna get." Sigh..These uncertainties of life.
Why can't we have things our way? Why?

I promise. 7:54 AM.

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